It's one of those days where everyone's using words I understand but are talking in a completely different language to me. I'll say one thing and the response will just be gibberish, cryptic or something I didn't even ask to know. Usually, when my thoughts are cluttered, I liken it to someone pressing a whole lot of typewriter keys down all at once, with only a garbled, incomplete mess striking the page.
It could be a result of my mind going soft because my Summers leave me too much time to think to have any fun, but my only goal right now is to save up enough money to get the hell away from here. Where would I go? To the one place where I know I'm understood, of course. It really is time to start anew.
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Psychotic mental illness.
I propose: schizophrenia.
First and foremost, you seem to be presenting with a degree of disorganised and unusual thinking; thought disorder. You hear the words, but cannot interpret their significance to the context. Do you feel your mind is racing from thought to thought, often jumping mid-thought to a new thought?
Usually, when my thoughts are cluttered, I liken it to someone pressing a whole lot of typewriter keys down all at once, with only a garbled, incomplete mess striking the page.
Visual (and perhaps auditory, assuming you hear the typing) hallucinations.
It could be a result of my mind going soft because my Summers leave me too much time to think to have any fun, ...
Dysphoria, anhedonia, avolition; resulting in social withdrawal, lack of motivation, general unhappiness.
... but my only goal right now is to save up enough money to get the hell away from here.
Paranoia; here (ie, where you are) is not good for you for undescribable or illogical reasons. An irrational fear/unsettling feeling that anywhere but here is better.
To the one place where I know I'm understood, of course.
Delusions of grandeur; because you believe that somewhere else (but cannot define that place) you have significance.
Respectfully, no. I think you're reading too much into the metaphors i've provided.
I have had depression before, but I used CBT and REBT to overcome it, and I still do.
I know of Cognitive Behavioural Therapy; one of the standards for depression. What's REBT? It's not ringing any bells, though.
And that schizophrenia thing was a joke. One of the best things about psychology is the application of mental disorder on the normal through selective interpretation of symptoms.
Fear not: for a diagnosis you need to be defined as abnormal. But here's the catch: the definition of normal and abnormal are not defined; it's all interpretive and subjective based. It's why psychology is so interesting, because while the theories apply on a general scale, it's ultimately an individualistic assessment that determines a condition.
What is normal? What is abnormal? I just took your metaphors and applied a basic (yet false) assumption to it: they were abnormal. From there the diagnosis was easy.
But it was, I assure you, a joke. Fear not, you do not have schizophrenia.
Depression is a kick in the face. Do what you need to do to stay cognitively sound.
ALSO:
I think you're reading too much into the metaphors i've provided.
I am, but only because it requires effort and knowledge of a mental disorder to make such a diagnosis. I did it because it was funny, not because I was genuinely reading too much into it. =P
SAFE.
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